The pain slowly lessened and fully went away the next afternoon. We called Dr. Lee and I knew instantly that it was over, the babies were gone. He kept apologizing and said something about getting rest, testing for something about Lupus and a bunch of other things I didn't understand, but most of all I remember him saying we should allow ourselves to grieve. He asked me to come by the following Wednesday for one more hCG test and when we were ready, we could all sit down and talk and figure things out.
On Wednesday I found out that there weren't any positive changes with my hCG levels and was advised to stop all of my hormone shots. For now I'll follow up with a Gyno next week and then we'll follow up with Dr. Lee. I'm bleeding a little heavier and the cramping still comes and goes, but not as bad as before.
It all still feels like a blur. I'm sad one minute, angry the next and then when I calm down I realize it just wasn't meant to be. It's no ones fault and there's nothing we could have done to stop it from happening. We still haven't given up hope, so when we're ready we'll try again and hope for the best.